You'd think that when history repeats itself, we'd learn to make a different choice, to do something different.
That we'd learn from our mistakes and fix our actions.
So why do we keep going back to something we know is wrong, and make the same mistakes over and over again? And why do we do this when we already know the outcome?
Sometimes, I guess we hope for a different outcome. We hope that maybe - just maybe - something is different enough this time that the result won't be the same as it has been.
Why do we knowingly make the same mistakes? What drives us to go through the same pain continuously, and know we're going to end up with the same as before?
I mean, are we insane? Am I?
Einstein, being the wise man he was, once said, "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
But am I really expecting different results? I know what happens each time, yet I keep hoping for something else. Is this insanity? I know what'll happen each time, yet I keep doing it. Insanity, or stupidity?
Probably both. Because, for once, I can say I saw it coming. I knew it would happen, but I did it anyway. Better than being blind-sided.
With time comes knowledge, I guess.
We are all insane. I think its become almost natural for the human mind to hope for the impossible. When you cant have one of the only things youve ever wanted, its pretty hard to let it go and move on. Sometimes the same mistakes are gladly made again and again only for the temporary gratification of deluding yourself with hope for a different outcome. I dont know what drove you to write this, but this is just my outlook on it. As much as the fear of disappointment sinks in, I still manage to redirect my hope towards something new and unknown instead of the same girl who has repeatedly wounded me. Which is something that I still have trouble doing, so just know that most of us in this world hope for the impossible. I hope you feel better Jill.
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